Sometimes we forget. We forget to take joy in the little things, we forget to take joy in the big things, simply put, we forget to take joy! I am as guilty of this as anyone else and as of late, I am extremely guilty of this. Let me explain in finer detail;
This morning I found myself in a particularly foul mood. Why? I’m not 100% sure but, I am sure that is is the result of a combination of things, not just one thing in particular. I am quite tired. So tired in fact that I could not even find the energy to get together with an old friend and play music last night. I feel as if I am being pulled in every direction when it comes to running the coffee shop and roastery to the point that I am having a very hard time focusing on the tasks I feel I need to be doing. I have not yet been able to get down to the roastery this week without some sort of prior interruption that requires my immediate attention and being a person who finds comfort in a routine, this messes with my head quite a bit. All of this ends up with me being overly frustrated and mad as hell at everyone and everything around me when in all honesty, it is not their fault.
So what do I do? I get down to the roastery this morning (after a scheduled 2 hour delay for the school and a quick coffee bean delivery) and I brew a cup of coffee which, to be honest, I can’t even remember what bean these are, I left them out on the counter last night and it completely escapes me what they were. I sit back in my big comfy chair and I close my eyes. I do my very best to not think about anything but the cup in my hands and the taste of the coffee. And at first, it does not work, my mind makes a beeline for my to-do list today and all of the things that annoyed me this morning. After a few more attempts, I lose myself in the sweet sounds of the renovations going on in the room above me and the warmth and flavor notes of the coffee I am sipping. After a few moments of this I start to make a mental list. As cheesy as it may sound, I make a mental slide show of thoughts of all of the things I should be happy about. A stepson who isn’t a complete nightmare, in fact, he’s pretty damn ok most days. My wife who is doing her best to not only run a cafe but also take care of our household which I have not been around as much as I would like to be as of late or as helpful as I should be. Our 4 month old baby girl who even when her grandma can’t pull a smile out of, will give the biggest, mouth wide open smile as soon as I say her name and she sees me. The fact that my job consists of, at it’s core, roasting and drinking coffee. The amount of support we have in our community and the amazing amount of support we have from our family. I have a mother-in-law who I can not only tolerate, I don’t mind being around her for longer than 15 minutes and that is more than I can say for most of the people I see on a day-to-day basis. My mother and Step-father who constantly go out of their way to help us in any way we need even if it means they miss out on things they have had planned (but not quite as severe as cancelling a relaxing cruise to make a trip to Taiwan just so they can see their grandchildren…). And, I have the time and ability to sit back and play these thoughts in my head and that I should be eternally grateful for!
After pondering on all of this for about 5 minutes, I realize, I’m drinking The Acutec Blend. It was a small amount of beans left over from yesterdays roast and packaging before I delivered. Time to get to work. My three favorite things;
Put on some music, brew some coffee, handle my business! Life is good!